Cool beans!

I have majer issues yo. Its why it lead to me breaking up with my fiance. I couldn't accept the help I needed and ruined it all because I am selfish, uncaring and immature. I deserve to die alone because I am such a monster. I turned out to be exactly like my dad. When I look in the mirror I think of this http://thm-a01.yimg.com/nimage/34f319dc2a1c6d4a

Fallen Angel Finds Love

To never hear the words "I Love You"Spoken from a man again,Makes me feel alone and frightened,Do I not deserve this again???I feel so empty deep in the depths of my broken soul,oh,To have the warmth of him to hold when winter is so cold and bitter...I dream of him,So pure and charming,It is he who holds my heart together,but oh,will i ever get that chance to have and to hold,I cry in the night,and he is the one i cry for...His words are kind,His voice is gentle,He walks with the lord just as i do!He wants to protect me...I know he cares deeply for me as i do for him!The things i could show him,My sweet,Loving ways...To kiss his cute lips,to hold his strong body close to mine...To look into his eyes and to see him adoring me with his eyes in a glow and a smile of true friendship and longing and Love...To have one full day and into the night with him would be grand!Just to hold him close and kissing him warmly and seductively too...Just give us a chance...a chance at true bliss!There are so many things i want to share with him...tell him...so many things to do together...I do not want to waste time,Though i know that good things do take time...Time and patients is where i am now,but even though i do not see him,I talk with him daily and when ever i hear his voice my heart fills with joy,my fear go's away...my mind starts to clear...He fills my cold,lonely spots with kindness and hope...Dear Lord,you know what will come,But i pray to you to someday,not to far off,To bless me with this man whom i adore,In your name and in Christ Amen-

It is in your hands help me to manifest this Love that is so true and pure,Please give him the strength and want,and passion...Undieing passion... I have waited too long Lord and so has he,I pray to,one day,be with him and have him to hold,Love and share my day's night's and year's with...

Amen!!! Lord please hear my prayer!!! Love Dana {Heart} @~--)--- :) :) :)

Retribution

I pray to God for retribution,to make all wrongs right.In lucid dreams i
wander,always pondering the mysterious ways of God.
In the midst of suffering we always call onto him.
His omnipotent wisdom surrounds all things.
I am ready to forgive,but never to forget.
Some days i am so full of rage and envy,
I know it is a sin,it nauseates me and
it is merciless,puts me in a deep state
of melancholy.It drains me mentally.
I feel like a martyr when it comes to Love...
I want to stay optimistic,but often i sabotage it??
I reflect on my past far to often,
Why did he forsake me so??
I am but a ghost in the past,Back then
i got a glimpse of Gods grace
and it filled my soul with infinite Love,
all along he knew i would fail but in that moment
i felt true divinity enrapture my whole being.
I believe that he gave me this glimpse of pure Love
and Grace because he knew i was going to have a
downfall like never before and i needed his
enlightenment within me to resuscitate me...
Now i must relish in the present,the here and now,
I will no longer scowl when i walk,i shall hold my head
up high,God does truly want me here and what ever
my destiny may be...I need to be here with my daughter
She is very Sacred to me.She is my Lilly Rose
forever to Love...I must outwit the darkness and
come into the Light... by:Dana Kathryn Barnett-